I’d say that everyone has a struggle - a greater jihad - to overcome in their life. And this is yours. It’s worth it to battle it out and prevent yourself from acting upon these desires. Trust me the reward will be amazing. Think of the bigger picture and remember good things come to those who do good and fight against their desires for the sake of Allah. I’d also advise to make some distance with the girl and to fast. Please don’t take offence, I do just want the best for you. Take care and I pray Allah grants you strength and patience through all your struggles and blesses you and your family. Ameen :)
Warm fatigue massages sore shoulders and swims through my veins but utter contentment and satisfaction fill my inflamed lungs. The pain is oh so very apparent, but then so is the affection - guess which is winning the war tonight.
“I used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine her, and imagine that she must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m just as strange as you.”
the title of my autobiography is going to be “that’s not how you spell my name”
Eating a carrot for lunch because no freezer food and body hurts too much/lack of energy to make pasta.
One of my favourite things is when you don’t find someone all that physically attractive but then you get to know them and their personality starts to shine through their features and they become the most beautiful and exquisite creature.